Oops, I did it again. Even with all the stuff I know about consciously creating, I went unconscious, and I let my fear create my reality.
In my recent post on Manifesting, I wrote about the basics of The Law of Attraction, so you’d think I’d know better, but apparently I’m still in a state of learning.
Here’s what happened: I am in the midst of a major life transition right now. Major. During this transition my source of income is in transition as well. And stepping into the unknown has kicked up some fear, and this fear changed my vibration, and that change in vibration changed my financial reality.
I should specify that I am a very good money manifestor. I resonate high with the dollar signs, baby. In this area I am abundant. At least, I have been.
So here’s what I did that mucked everything up. I said something to the effect of, “I should budget my savings and not buy many things because I won’t have money coming in.”
That was the WRONG thing to say.
I told the universe that I was broke, and when you tell the universe you’re broke, the universe gives you broke.
I felt this vibrational shift almost immediately. I began to feel the vibration of poor even though I had ample money in the bank and even through I still had some money that would be coming in.
So when my words said broke and my vibration exuded poor, guess what happened? Take a guess!
Within the same week, four very telling things happened:
1) The security deposit that my landlord mailed to me got lost in the mail (Five weeks later, I still don’t have it).
2) A significant payment that was due to me never got deposited into my account (and five weeks later may still be MIA).
3) My employer shorted me several hundred dollars on my paycheck (I’ve since filled out some paperwork, but just found out today that it was lost in the mail).
4) A woman who owed me money for some items purchased, shorted me on the amount owed. It was only $25, but this well-timed incident was none-the-less impactful.
My thoughts changed my vibration and my vibration altered the events in my physical reality. This money was going to be 100% in my possession, and my vibration pushed it away from me.
And in regards to budgeting and curtailing expenses, how do you think that went?
When I exuded “broke” I felt lack, and that lack sent me into spending overdrive. My thoughts became something like, “I don’t have enough!” So (the irony here is the real kicker) I bought more. I actually bought MORE things.
Here’s an illustration of one such spending event:
Because I am now a professional blogger, I bought a selfie stick. (This was a justifiable business expense.)
To put your iPhone into a selfie stick, you need an iphone adapter. I bought one. What I didn’t know is that it already came with one. And for some reason, I’m still not entirely sure how or why, I bought two more adapters. In short, I only needed one adapter, but I ended up buying four. FOUR! Agh!
Last week I had a discussion with my friend Audrey Newmont. When I took Intentional Living classes with Audrey a few years ago she taught me the difference between “conscious” and “unconscious creating.” Things just went amuck because I was unconscious of what I was putting out there and therefore creating things I did NOT want. So to get things back on track again, I have to consciously create. I have to consciously create what I want with my thoughts, my words, and my vibration.
The good news is that I was keen enough to get the message from The Universe before my entire financial life went awry.
Here are the lessons I’ve learned:
I’ve gotta resonate rich – no matter what! If I want to have money, I have to embrace a kind of vibrational entitlement. “Money comes to me easily.” Why? It just does. That’s the way things work. Lots of money flows my way.
And I know I can get the resonating rich thing down, but I have another area that is in need of some attention.
I have had an ongoing issue with buying a lot of things. I was able to get away with this bad habit when I had guaranteed, ample cash flow. When I overbought, I would just cover up my spending indiscretion with income.
At this moment of life transition, however, overspending would be incredibly imprudent. But also looking into the lifestyle I desire to create, I don’t want to buy things I don’t need or I’ll just end up giving away. I don’t want to be weighed down by crap. At the beginning of this summer when I moved out of my apartment in Northern California, I learned the hard way just how much crap I owned and couldn't take with me – and some of it was good crap, but crap non-the-less.
So what am I going to do?
I am going to consciously create a major pattern – one that is healthy and will work for me within all of life’s financial fluctuations.
Here’s what I came up with:
My purchases are investments. The seflie stick, the nutritious lunch, etc all help me do my best work (they are also potential tax write-offs). So, I’m buying things hat allow me to do my best work, and doing my best work allows the money to roll right on in. Additionally, spending money keeps the financial flow moving, and it ok to buy a few high quality items that will have lasting value.
I’m feeling confident in these two new conscious creations. I will keep you posted on my success!
But now I have a question for you, readers. Yes! YOU!!!
Do you think that your words and thoughts have the power to change the circumstances in your reality for better or for worse?
Feel free to share your experiences in the comments section!